Dear God, It’s Me, Maya
It’s me, Maya. Yo why you hate me so much bruh?! Last week I told you I wanted out if you kept things going the way they were and umm I’m still here annnnndddd you didn’t change what I need you to change yet! Like haven’t you had enough of punishing me!? Every single time I turn around, it’s another failure with my name written on it! I try so hard to do the right things and still, I can never seem to have the happy ending! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT FROM ME!? I can’t take it anymore! I’m tired of tryna do the right thing and still stuff doesn’t work out in my favor! I’m tired of tryna be obedient to you and still lookin like boo boo the fool in the end. I’m sick of trying to encourage others to better and then they still act a fool and it’s like you just let them get away with it! It wouldn’t be so bad if it was things that I don’t care about, but, BRUH, it’s the stuff that I truly desire that fails. THAT HURTS! I’m tired. I just want to come to a place where I can finally say, I get why everything else had to fail, because this, this is EXACTLY what I’ve been praying for. 😔
All over the place Maya
I don’t know about y’all, but sometimes, just sometimes, I gotta get really real with God. I don’t hold my tongue, I say exactly what’s on my mind and I don’t hold back. Cuz if you’re so much God, then you can handle whatever I throw at you. 🤷🏽♀️ When I’m mad, I tell Him. When I’m happy, I tell Him. When I’m scared, I tell Him. When I’m thankful, I tell Him. When I’m frustrated, I tell Him. When I’m depressed, I tell Him. When I’m discouraged, I tell Him. Cuz I surely ain’t about to serve no God who I can only tell the good things to and say He’s awesome, if that’s not how I’m feeling! If I’m feeling like He’s being a complete jerk to me, I’M SAYING IT! The same way I don’t want people in my life whom I can only speak well of and not tell them when I’m hurt, annoyed, bothered, angry, or whatever, I don’t want a God like that.
At the end of the day, it’s ok to be honest with God. It’s ok to tell each and every part of our lives. Let’s be real, HE ALREADY KNOWS! So stop being fake and phony and get up in His face and let Him know what it really is! He longs for that. He longs for close intimate relationship with us! Don’t be more honest with people than you are with God. Tell Him your thoughts, ideas, plans, desires, hopes, wishes, sorrows, joys, pains, WHATEVER, tell it all! Give Him your whole entire life. Don’t do it expecting a perfect life, CUZ BABY THAT AINT HAPPENING! But do it expecting that He won’t fail you, even when it seems like your life is in complete shambles and that all hell is breaking loose! Sometimes our situations won’t change because He’s trying to teach us something or grow us to a more mature place, while being in the midst of the mess. We gotta remember, trials and tribulations only come to make us stronger and there will never be a testimony without a test!